How to fail
Though I usually don’t take part in making one, this year I decided to set a New Year’s resolution. Considering my inexperience with creating and achieving serious New Year’s resolutions, I decided to start off easy. Not only did it have to be something I‘ve always been meaning to do, but it had to be something I knew I could do. It had to be challenging enough to be impressive, but leisurely enough to not stress me out. Most importantly, it had to be rewarding, and preferably fun. After much deliberation, I finally settled on my golden idea. My New Year’s resolution is to become famous.
Normally, I try to practice a range of writing, creating everything from poetry and short stories, to songs and articles. Recently, I have been focusing all of my creative energy into writing movie scripts. Since settling on my New Year’s resolution, I’ve completed a 106 page screenplay, and am currently in the process of writing two others. After I finished writing my first movie, I felt confident. It was the first large project I had ever completed, and I didn’t completely hate the finished product. I proceeded to send the script to multiple production companies. As expected, nothing has come of those attempts.
The concept of failure has always intrigued me. I remember entering high school and being told that my writing was terrible. Where some may perceive this situation as a lack of personal success, I saw it as a challenge. I began reading one novel a week, writing in my spare time, and expanding my vocabulary through research and active practice. By my final year of high school, my average in English had risen substantially.
The way I see it, everything comes down to perspective. Failure is nothing more than a state of mind. Rather than relishing in my defeats, I’ve always done my best to turn them into opportunities. Though my script was denied, I utilized the “failed project” as a foundation for future works, reflecting on the things I did well, and the aspects I still need to improve on. You may say my New Year’s resolution is subjected to an inevitable failure - and in some sense, you may be right. But from my perspective, this mission has only heightened my usual level of motivation. I’ve written more in the past few days than I ever have in my life. I’ve set goals for myself, and I’ve completed a script that I would have never otherwise finished. I’ve discovered a new appreciation for this hobby, and in turn, I have been writing with passion and purpose. Despite any shortcomings I may experience, I have everything to gain, and nothing to lose.