S U M M E R
I really struggled with this. Although I had the foundation started back in June, I had no clear idea where I wanted to take this video. The longer it took me to figure it out, the more frustrated I felt. The more frustrated I felt, the longer it took me to find the inspiration to finish. It was a brutal cycle.
It's strange because there were a lot of great moments this summer. From simply sitting on the beach and taking in the beauty of waves crashing upon me as the sun was setting to the sheer pleasure of walking the unfamiliar streets of London - my heart was genuinely full. Perhaps, it was my crippling need for perfection, and the need to articulate exactly how I was feeling so you too can feel the magnitude of my emotions.
I need to go back to the beginning. I need to go back to the core of why I'm doing this, which is to create a visual representation of my every day to remind myself to slow down, remember, and be grateful. It doesn't have to be perfect. It doesn't have to be exactly the way I had envisioned in my head. I struggled with this because I had no clear idea where I wanted to take this video, how the story should progress, and where it should end. But I need to remember that often, we don't get to decide where life takes us, and how stories end. Sometimes things could feel unfinished. We can either choose to continue or completely change it. Either way, it never just ends. We always have the power to make our stories however way we want.